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Work On In Despair

Barring popular demand, there's not going to be a Simulacrumception Life #2.  Tomodachi Life sucks, even with the addition of simulacrums of the likes of Charles Darwin, Mother Teresa, Albert Einstein, and Harriet Tubman to this ridiculous experiment.  In short, I was hoping for a microcosm, but I found a Facebook simulator.  As a general introvert, this game revolts me.  If I was not sick with a cold, I probably would have known better than to buy this god awful social media simulator masquerading as a game.

Now I am just about recovered from that cold bug and have decided to act on the theory that a lot of the trouble I am having expressing myself creatively is physical.  I need more exercise, so how about a half-hour on the treadmill every morning?  I threw meditation into that routine, before or after the treadmill, because it is a good idea to exercise one's critical thinking muscles as well as their aerobic ones.  Excitingly, day one of my four day weekend, I succeeded in doing just that.

Then I get a phone call saying that we are about to entertain company for the next few days.   No choice, they undeniably need our help here, the only responsible thing to do is to let them come on over.   And they're coming along with a couple of children who will be all up in my grill because I only show them kindness, as a good adult should.  Bizarro weekend: denied.  At least they can't be here forever but, by the time they're gone, it may be too late, any traction I may have had will be lost.
Edmund Burke is responsible for the other quote on this page too.  I would be hard pressed to refute I am not a nobody at this point.
So I am feeling the heavy hand of destiny upon my chest.  Isolating the necessarily solitude to have opportunity to work on a game is doable enough if you forsake a social life, as I do.  To actually try to work on a game carries 1001 little snags, and such is the implicit difficulty of the ordeal.  During the long process of overcoming these trials, I can be derailed significantly by something like catching a lousy cold.  Now, just I am getting over my latest cold, something happens to cause me to lose my solitude.  By the time I get my solitude back, I may have lost all impetus to continue.  This must be destiny, as what else is as merciless as this?

On the other hand, this is all an excuse.  As a recent fortune cookie said, "Never despair; but if you do, work on in despair."  Though I know the author, I am not entirely sure from what context this quote was taken, but lets take this as the most straightforward interpretation: whether or not you're tough, it is important to try to keep going, even when the going is tough.  In other words, all these supposed difficulties I am having are, at least in part, my fault.  I should have shouldered on, working even in a state of apparent despair.

Between getting over a nasty cold and  now entertaining guests, this has been a tough last couple of weeks for this introvert, and it is probably only going to get tougher.  The good news is I have a vacation coming up soon.  If I can keep getting up on that treadmill, maybe something good will come of it.
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